In the beginning she watched from afar. Slowly over the days she moved closer, always on the outer edges but always there. Eventually she came to sit beside me; quietly. Now she waits for me to speak to her or even to notice her. Her beautiful hair and big dimples, her eyes the color of a blue green ocean. Lithe and tall she carries herself with an elegance that belies the conditions she lives in. At first I couldn't see the beauty of her heart because she seldom smiled, and truly not even the beauty of her face, as she kept the eye that is so crossed squinted up because she can see better that way and hopes others might not notice. Sometimes she will wear sun glasses to cover. Most times now she is dressed up and takes care with her appearance, and if I arrive sooner than expected she goes to change and then comes back to sit quietly. Never obtrusive or attention seeking. When it is time to leave she walks behind Lena and I and waves bye and gives a shy smile.
There are always those special orphans who stand out to individual families and she has become mine. Your heart is tugged by all of them but for me but in the end she is the one that I want to take home with Lena and I. This young lady has captured my imagination and heart over the past several weeks. I have pulled her out into the sunshine and she has basked in the attention.
We have slowly become friends and she sits a little closer and shares a little more. She loves to cook and to read, she knows a little English and tries to learn more. I tried to give her a dollar for an ice cream and she doesn't want to accept. She and Lena seem to be a nice compliment to each other and Lena doesn't seem to mind sharing me with her, although I am careful there.
I began thinking about the possibility of just one more to bring home. Envisioning how it might work and how we would arrange it. How we could get those beautiful eyes corrected something that would have been such an easy fix as a baby.
I inquired about her status and found out her age. I must face reality none of this will happen, not because of us, but because of our unjust system for the cut off age of orphans that we are allowed to adopt. She just turned 16 and can not be adopted. She has no family and no siblings to visit. The director said she is a sweet girl and hoped she could find a family before her time ran out. Maybe I can fund raise the money to get her eyes fixed. I must find some way to help her. She has overcome so much but it will be hard enough to make it in her future without the loss of vision as well
So many hurting children. There is another girl here that the girls shun and no one likes because she is mean. Sveta found out her mother sold her to her boyfriends. She explained to the girls that they need to be kind because she has a sad story. The girls were standing in a group and said, "Sveta we all have sad stories, if they were happy we wouldn't be here."
Thank God he gave us Lena in time with only a few months to spare before her 16th birthday and we can bring her home. She showed us her scars yesterday from being burned and then she told us her story. She asked Sveta if her fingers can be fixed, I said, I am not sure we will have to go to a plastic surgeon. The story about the very large scar on her stomach is so sad. I know we can definitely help fix her heart that has been broken but as for the physical scars I don't know. She showed us the skin that has been grafted from her leg for her hands. She said it was worse than it should have been because she was not taken to he hospital soon enough and infection set in her fingers. I kiss her fingers and see only perfection, and in her scars the ability to overcome so much.